Lack of Structure §

Just dumping thoughts on a somewhat piece of text. I get to know myself a bit better. Understand what is inside. My systems should reflect that.

Understand: it is already hard to begin. Make it simple and understand lack of structure is everything. It’s human nature. My nature. Write and see how well things connect, how well I generate stuff. How I improve.

“Should I just write here?, ” he asks for the hundredth time. The answer has been already discussed, decided. It’s clear. But not transparent, a shadow, a dust lingers there and sicken the clear picture.

He had to make to a decision, many of them. And the reason he is here is the fruit of the chain of them. He couldn’t have chosen a better path. Because a better path only exists with all things considered. And he has no way to know if that’s the case.

“But why should I go on?, ” he adds. Because going is what makes you. An end point, the future. Forget it, it doesn’t exist. God, you haven’t even proof that neither the past or future exist. Don’t take for granted.

Only the going matters. And the going lacks structure. Trying to add complexity results in escaping the moment. And the moment should be always there. Sometimes altered, sometimes cohese. But there.